
Friday, April 19, 2013
Days in the past were good.
Where your 'future' seems so far away and you don't see/feel the impact/consequence of your negligence in... studies. LOL.
and whr everything just seems so distant. Aging seemed distant. Dying seemed distant. People leaving seemed distant. Reality, as a whole, was distant.
but now.
the dread is so real. :( the future is soon to become my present. and you know just any damn thing can happen any instance. I don't want to know all those things are going to happen :( it's devastating.
but it's denial. On 2011 aug 17, my 2nd uncle died due to pancreatic cancer. but it's only when I stood in front of his casket with his pic in a frame that I suddenly realized it's all so real. so so real.
Why, life? & what can I do with you now. :(