Thursday, September 05, 2013
Music of the present.
Beautiful piano melody, melancholic lyrics and a really depressing singing voice.
hmmmm
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Another of ww's concert down.
Many things felt different this time round; for the 1st time I actually felt 'involved' (?).
I tried to overcome a stupid emotional obstacle of mine by taking up a solo.
But I failed; I still can't.
Ha ha ha ha ha. I'll shiver so much -.- omg. why?
#sighs
This doesn't happen to me when I'm playing in other bands.
I just feel extremely pressurized in the ww setting :(
Asked yuki if he's okay to play the solo! & you have no idea how relieved I felt when the solo is 'gone'. hahahahahahahaa. & the feeling when 'your' solo was so well-played by someone else. So much to learn, me. He's only 20. I'm like....2*. T-T
But I still had a small solo of 7 notes hahahhahahaa w no shivering note/s -_-
I'll consider this as an achievement unlocked for le noob fel here. *clapclap*
Inferiority complex x infinity.
Spent 4 hours into the late night to do up the gifts for the euph jap people. sleeping at 530am when there's concert the next day HAHAHA totally mad.
Still, I think my end products looks good :) hahaha
received good 'praises' from le section mates hahahahahaa
Thanks them for helping me squeeze the scrapbook paper and the decos into the tumblers!
It's fun to prepare gifts, tho it'll be more enjoyable if there's the grace of time. but it didn't matter! sometimes great works still happen under the pressure of time. Either way, good things come when you put in your heart and effort (?). yea yea.
The concert was quite magical.. esp singaporiana :/
I actually teared at the ending of the last movement when Mr Ito bowed his head down, while the silence ringing after the last note was still so intense. Didn't know how that exactly came about but it just felt so sad..? :/
probably cuz of the oboe's solo which had a few casualty notes when we all know that the solo could have been perfect.
But anw, what's perfect?
Blemish-free?
Nah not necessarily.
It was great. It was emotional. It was breath-taking. That's enough.
& I rly need to comment about the jap oboe/cor anglais player. It's like the 1st time he played the solos w us, they were all so-so. But the solos got better and better in the subsequent rehearsals. More and more musical. More and more emotional. Then during the actual performance, he was just unbelievable. His solos were sooo nice, the hairs on my arms stood. His solos for the 2nd and 3rd movements of singaporiana were like. o m g. Transcending. My~ So nice.
I rly can't wait for the recordingsssss. I want to play repeat for like forever.
Had a really really fun time losing a bit of myself during this period. It's a bit like tearing down a little of that wall you built around yourself and be friendlyyyyyyyyy. To be that silly and crazy fel I was back in the sec/jc days. Added so many ppl on fb, it was frenzyyy LOL. Had a lot of awkward moments too, but well. They, too, shall pass. ha ha ha aha ha haaaaa.
Being too careful these days. Sometimes we need a little winding down.
That's it! Time to return to reality.
Assignment and projects.
O goshhhhh :(